Excerpt from: Destiny's Passion, a Killer Online; a modern day thriller !

It's like a slave getting a whippin'. The lashes upon my flesh, have torn at my skin leaving welts, not blood oozing but all that I am. No salve, nor time has ever healed my wounds completely. Sure they have scabbed over, then a memory or a reminder reopens it, only to have it ooze more profusely. So drained I feel. Ironic I should say that, because I really don't feel much at all these days. Frozen like a fly in an ice cube I have become.

Maybe deep down, my heart always knew she was the one for him, though my mind had bad vibes about her. Perhaps my mind was trying to fool what my heart was saying? And maybe my mind always knew his role for me was passion passing through my life, even though my heart ached for so much more from him. Either way, to this day I still get chills; my eyes still fill and overflow with forlorn tears for this man. My heart is empty. There is no hope ever for us now, the damage has been done. He let me down and our relationship drown, and I lashed out in hurt. I know I will never get over him, what he meant, what he did.

Anyway, I have to go now. The warden is coming. It is exercise time in the yard. Hmmmm. I don't want to exercise, I just want to relax my mind, my heart, my soul. The only thing I want to achieve today is....peace. I am so tired, so very tired of teetering between life or death. Each day I ask myself, why? I am dead inside, why not kill the rest of me? Shall, I be so lucky to have peace today? I may go to hell, for what I did, but the good new is….I’ll see him there.